Beloved, if you feel like you're in the fight of your life, I have an encouraging word for you today.
This is what the Lord showed me:
Many of you have lost “the feels.” In your previous season, you were used to feeling Papa God holding you up. You were used to seeing Jesus' face easily. However, right now, you know you're still close to Him–but you can't feel His hand on you.
If that's you, Papa God wants you to know that He is testing you for your own good.
You've been getting stronger and stronger in the place where you've been. However, Papa wants you to develop your backbone. He wants you to develop strength in your back and in your shoulder muscles, so you'll be able to lift more, stand longer, handle more, and walk further.
To that end, His arms are still around you–but He is allowing you to not feel them right now.
His eyes are still on you. His face is still right in front of yours. He still sees everything you're doing, and you're still sitting on His lap. But, you can't feel anything except your foundation.
If you look closely, though, you'll see His arms all around you. Although you may not feel them, His arms have actually never left you. You have never left His embrace–not because of your ability to remain, but because of HIS ability to keep you.
Beloved, look around you. Sit up, take notice, and trust.
If you'll trust that you're still on Papa's lap and that underneath you are His everlasting arms, you're going to see a big, beautiful world around you. If you'll trust that He won't ask you to do anything you can't do, you can discover muscles you never knew you had. And if you'll keep your eyes on His face, you can distract yourself from the worry and uncertainty that are coming against your flesh.
You are being tested, but it's a test Papa knows you can pass.
Psalm 17:3 says:
You have tested my heart; You have visited me in the night; You have tried me and found nothing; I have purposed that my mouth shall not transgress” (Psalm 17:3).
And Psalm 11:4-5 says:
The Lord is in His holy temple, the Lord's throne is in heaven; His eyes behold, His eyelids test the sons of men. The Lord tests the righteous, but the wicked and the one who loves violence His soul hates” (Psalm 11:4-5).
Papa God knows the purity of your love for Him.
He knows you inside and out, better than you could ever know yourself. He knows the innocence of your spirit, for He restored your innocence when He washed you in the blood of Jesus. He knows your sweet spirit and your utter inability to care for yourself.
Papa is going to take care of you.
Just like a baby cannot take care of himself, so you cannot take care of yourself. It's okay, though. Abba Father has got you. He's got you! He is aware of the chaos around you. He understand what you cannot understand. He sees what you cannot see.
But He also knows your strength.
He formed you in your mother's womb. He knit your bones together with His own two hands. He knows what you're capable of, and He knows He made you to do a lot more than you think you can do.
Father knows your potential.
Soon, it will be time to move forward. You will advance slowly at first, but then you will begin to run. However, running takes muscles … and those are the muscles you're building right now.
Do not get discouraged with the practice.
Keep stretching. Keep reaching. Keep staring at Father's face. Keep lifting those arms. Keep balancing where you are. Minute by minute, day by day, you will grow. And before you know it–without even realizing that the test is over–you will be in a place you couldn't imagine being even three months ago.
You are growing. Don't give up.
Just keep growing. Just keep practicing. Keep drinking the sincere milk of the Word, that you may grow thereby. And soon, you'll be off and running.
Does this word speak to your spirit right now? If so, please leave a comment below.