As you know, I have been leading worship in the healing rooms at our church for awhile. In July, though, the healing rooms closed for the summer. And in August, I was too tired to go back. I had come to the point where I just didn’t feel like I could do it anymore.
But this week, my husband and I went back. We missed it and wanted to give it another shot. And I had the privilege of leading worship again.
Every week is different at the healing rooms. Sometimes people come in and sit and soak. Sometimes they are just in and out, passing through on their way to receive prayer. This week, there were some of both. Some people sat and soaked in the worship, and others were just passing through.
I started off just playing the piano. I was excited to be there, but I just wasn't sure I was called to leading worship, especially if singing is involved. I know I'm called to be an instrumentalist, though, so I felt like I was on safe territory there. I have also been pretty tired, so just playing the piano for awhile allowed me to focus in on the Lord and forget about everything else.
And the more I focused on Him, the more I felt His presence.
Pretty soon, I wasn’t really noticing the other folks there anymore—whether they were just passing through or soaking. It was just me and Jesus. Then the melody and lyric just began to flow out to the Lord. When I started singing Jon Thurlow’s “Storm All Around You,” I realized:
I would give anything for this.
To worship God. To bask in His presence. To minister to Him. To steward His praise. To impose His Word into the atmosphere, and into the hearts of everyone around me, through music.
To lead others into the same experience in God's manifest presence that He has given me.
So I have to go back.
I don't know how. I don't know how Bruce and I will work it into our schedules. We might be able to just go every other week or something like that.
But I have to go back.
I have to go back to minister to the Lord. To unleash His kingdom. To see “on earth as it is in Heaven” become reality for every person who hears.
To see His government increased on earth.
What about you? Have you abandoned something you need to go back to?
Is there something you're called to that you've allowed physical or mental fatigue, hopelessness, or discouragement to steal from you?
If so, won't you go back with me?
It may not be easy. If it's your calling, it's pretty much guaranteed that you will face difficulty. But God does give grace, right when (and where) you need it.
Let's go back together. Let's see God do everything in our lives that He wants to do.
What do you need to go back to today? Please leave a comment below!