Have you ever spent any time trying to figure out what’s wrong with you? Yeah. Don’t worry. You’re not alone.
Before I got saved, I was really messed up, and I spent a lot of time dwelling on that fact. Introspection was my favorite activity.
“Introspection” just means looking at yourself and trying to figure yourself out.
In my case, I spent a lot of time asking questions (of myself and others!) like:
- “What’s wrong with me in this area?”
- “Why am I like this?”
- “How do I need to change _____ in order to be… (accepted, pretty, popular, find Mr. Right, etc)?”
Just thinking about it now makes me cringe. Ugh… I was in a sorry state, and I made it even worse by looking at myself all the time! But I didn’t know any better then. I thought that examining all my problems as closely as I could was the way to solve those problems.
However, after I got saved, joined my church, and began to grow in the Lord, my pastor told me not to get into introspection. He called it “navel-gazing,” and said I should look at Jesus instead of myself. That was news to me!
I started trying to get in the habit of looking at Jesus. It took time, but eventually it worked. I began to look at the Lord more than I looked at myself, and it’s funny. Looking at myself had never done any good. But when I began to look at the Lord, I actually began to change. I started becoming like the One I was gazing upon.
I was reflecting on this lately, and this analogy occurred to me:
Introspection is like a daily haircut.
Just like a haircut, you think introspection is fun at first. You sit in the chair, look in the mirror, and hope to get all prettied up. But every time you focus your attention on yourself instead of on Jesus, you cut off the purpose God had for you in that moment. [Read more…]